My Thoughts on Turning 25

Isn't age a funny thing?

When I was little, I thought 25 was OLD. Like, really old. I thought I would be married and have babies by 25 (why is it that kids think being in your 20's is like being in your 40's?). On the opposite end of the spectrum, whenever you say to someone older than you that you're in your mid-twenties, they laugh and say "oh, you're so young", like you couldn't possibly know what it means to experience life because they're three years older than you. It's so funny how people judge ages that aren't their own.

Now that I'm turning 25 in just over a month, I'm realizing it's the first birthday I've had any odd feelings over. 25 seems to be the age people write about as some turning point — this Huffington Post writer talks about how 25 is "young but important — like my entire life could have gone in one direction or another." And this Vice article mentions, "Hitting 25 is the first true reminder that life is finite and you are dying by the second (fun!!!)" But I've still had a hard time understanding what it is about 25 that's freaking me out so much.

Here's what I think it is:

I feel like I've accomplished a lot, but have I done enough? On the one hand, I feel like I've done more than the average 25-year-old at this point in my life. I've turned my blog into a business, been promoted quickly at my jobs and found the person I want to marry one day. On the other hand, 25-year-olds start companies in this town — should I have done that by now? For some reason, turning 25 is make me ask myself these questions I never used to ask myself — and make me doubt myself.

I don't really want to be an adult. This sounds silly because I'm a really responsible person and never really acted like a kid even when I was one, but I don't want to be seen as an adult yet. I always liked the comfort in knowing if I really wanted to mess something up, I could — and it would be okay, because I was still a kid. Now, I don't feel like I have that power anymore, which is forcing me to take my life a little more seriously than usual.

It makes me reevaluate my relationships. Josh and I have been together six years this year, and we're both completely happy with where we're at and living together. But once you're in your mid-twenties (especially close to 25) everyone starts asking you when you're getting married or if you're thinking about having kids in the next few years (especially when you're in a long-term relationship). Even though I'm happy with where I'm at, people's questions get to you after a while and make you re-evaluate your stance on key life decisions.

Have any of you had these feelings about turning 25? Let me know in the comments section!